First theater play of my life...

It's long since I wrote my last post and probably , I should not be called an enthusiast blogger & neither I am, but it's the only" satisfaction " part that entices me back to my blog. These days , I m more calm and at peace with myself , reasons unknown , may be little ease of pressure of writing civil services mains.

Last evening , I somehow got little lucky ( thanks to Lokesh.. ) and joined one of my friends to watch a theatrical play in Shri ram Auditorium , near to my library " Sapru house". The play was dedicated to Faiz Mohammad Faiz , a poet which I started admiring since yesterday and hopefully will do so for continuing week.

" Kuch Ishq kiya kuch kaam.." was the title of the play and since it was offered as a freebie , I just wanted to hang out and get a feel of what exactly ,theatric play was all about . Call me naive , but being an engineer and coming from small town , i never had the will nor the awareness to explore such things. I liked the male protagonist , may be because of his rich baritone for delivering those immortal shayaris or may be for his passion for performance. However ,all the performances were commendable and I really liked the romantic and humor part of it.

On the flip part , I wasn't that lucky to decipher all those meaning of urdu words which could have made me more amenable to relish it . I have made a commitment to myself that if such a situation comes again in my life , I will definitely take out some time from my monotonous life to enjoy the same.

Well , one commitment more..to myself that I will be more punctual with my blogs ...now onwards ..

Adios !!!!!!!!!

Democracy & Media

Last night , I happened to listen discussion and news analysis on air. The subject for discussion was " Whether media $ press should be regulated more ?" I have already posted one blog titled " Press , media & pain " approximately a year ago where I stressed on why n how should media become more accountable to society. I also happened to write some stuffs on " Preparation of society towards globalised world " in one of my competitive exams.

I ruminated over issues related to press last night and contemplated to put it on blog. Big boss 4 has been in recent controversy where the show was allocated late night slot for its viewing because of its adult content .However , the organizers of the show got a stay order . 2ndly " Rakhi Ka Insaaf " too has been in news for the abusive languages which has been aired on its shows. Whether Rakhi Sawant is well qualified to mete out justice to anyone , is perhaps ludicrous to me . Anyway , generalising the issues , my question is shouldn't these reality shows be completely banned ?

I know , I am stirring the hornet's nest but I have my own biased as well as justified opinion.Media comes out with a bland justification that since we are a democratic country , hence we must have the right to choose the channel which we watch.

Gandhiji said once " Let the windows of our house be open so that fresh breeze may be allowed to rush in but that wind shall never be so strong , so as to sweep u off your feet " . Today we are blindly aping western countries ( n shows ??) irrespective of the fact that though developing , we have had our unique cultural identity which need to be preserved. Media should be the reflection of society but if the image comes out to be tarnished , It should have the right to clean the dirt patches of neat slate. I t should act as guiding torch and lead society rather than revel in the cheap circus of TRP. Perhaps , gone are the days when a complete family could watch any program and would come out completely unscathed bypassing the double-entendre meanings.

Recently I happened to watch Golmal 3 and the way characters in order to portray humour have used "punches" , is unjustified to me. But chalo , atleast in this case , an A certi can be issued . But airing reality show in late night slot is definitely not going to serve its cause . What's more disappointing is that mediaperson steps out as govt spokesperson and justifies every wrong doing. Feel an urge to write more about it but would continue tommorrow since I have time constraints in the library for using the system.....

Well I M back !!

yeah :) , what a long hiatus I had and probably , I wont be writing a long blog even when I am back , particularly because of time constraints. However , there will be issues related to my understandings of economy and some polity affairs.

Cant even describe , feel so alive right now :) .Sitting on the net ,it just clicked to me that I need to reawaken my dormant & moribund blog .Lot of things , positive as well as negative have happened in the past approx 1 1/2 yrs. Not complaining though ,since of late everything has been happening well n good and though there are certain areas of improvements , things look quite optimistic .

From my next blog onwards , I will try to make this blog a repository of issues n general knowledge. Feeling a little bit of nostalgia , when I used to post my blog late night during my engineering days. I had more idle time , than u could imagine :) & any pursuing engineers could have. Thanks to some of my friends who need exclusive mention , especially Punit , Ravi N Amresh , without whom I could have had hard time to get my degree.Rock on guys wherever u are :))

Next blog will be related to CSAT which UPSC has introduced for preliminary examination and surely a breather N relaxation from humdrum rote attitude & things unfolding in Myanmar with release of golden bird of Myanmar - Aang Saan Suu Kyi . Have tolerance for my spellings please .

Adios !!

New Destination....Kolkata !!

It has been approximately three n half years , pursuing my engineering . It will finish up by end of April . So I will have (literally) all the free time in this world to pursue my passions.

Lot of things are on the wish list .Would have to start from scratch in some , in others I will have to develop more competence . When I look back now , I never feel a nostalgia like I felt in my school . Have I become stoic or something is wrong with me? In my engineering curriculum , I never learned anything academically but I found out lot of drawbacks in myself. I am one of those lazy morons who keep planning and yet never find a reason of application . My sense of humor is pathetic . I, sometime, see humor in different facets of life but fail to recognize it. Girls find me shy , despite what I am not .

Now Guys , I can't just go on shouting at the top of my voice to let you know that I am not those diffident type . I , sometime , create hell a lot of complications to myself by imagining sort of things which might never occur . Anyways , all this finally culminates with my engineering .When I came back here 4 years ago from Delhi , I never thought , events would be unfolding like this . My new destination might bring some more struggles , some more revelations and in the quest some other things :) which I have been missing in my life . It's beautiful world out there and what I ask god , is a pair of eyes blessed by thee, to see it . It's time to let emotions drain out the pipe and allow myself to revel in those happiness .

Hope , this blog did not obscure my true longings and yeah , sometimes , I tend to be a bit more philosophical . :) It's all right , boys are allowed to be confused and puzzled up .

Adios !!

SIMSR !!

Well , actually it took some prodding and determination as
well to come over here and post my GD/ PI experience at
SIMSR.

Venue:Presidency college , Kolkata (15 March)
9.00 AM

I reached at the venue by 8.00 am. There were few guys waiting
and I think ,I went pretty early.There was a guy from BIT,Mesra (BCA) , with whom I had a bit of chit-chat.Soon we were joined by a cool gal.She was also from BIT-Mesra and c was working for TCS. Later on , we shared a good rapport and also roamed around Kolkata University. To my horror, meanwhile I had dirtied my shirt. I had prespired a lot and was bit clumsy.

Anyway, Initially we were told to register and sign up. Yours truly did a remarkable job and signed infront of other's name and was soon called for second time in next 5 minutes. When I heard my name called second time, I knew , my day had started with a bang and I had it messed up.Anyway ,went smiling and signed again.

We were divided in 6 grps and AFAIR , it was 14 each in grp.There was a gal from my college in grp so It wasn't that bad .It was a case-study "Indian Saas bahu and soap operas " and we were told to give our POV as monologue and believe me ,this was the only best opportunity we had.Later on , it was a fish market, all over India clubbed into 1. Anyway , I still enjoyed the process.

Nyway coming back to PI, I was ninth in my GD panel for Intvw process and so had to wait for a couple of hrs approx. There was a mid-aged lady and a mid-aged sir (my guess wud be rofessors) .Sir was little fascinated about mathematics part and asked everyone certain maths questions. Some of the questions which I remember , courtesy 2 other students, Kremer's rule,nth root of diffnal eqns etc. Characters involved M (mam), S(sir) & yours truly (me) .

me: Gud mng sir ! Gud mng mam!

M: Gud mng! Take ur seat.

me: Thnk u mam !

M: Tell me sumthng abt u which is not written in profile ?

me: blah blah blah ( stress on family ,my upbringing ..etc etc)

M:Why do you say..simple and humble family..?

me:blah blah.
(Both looked convinced)
S: What is your father's business?

me: mentioned..( explained it)

S: what is levy ?

me: Explained as per my knowledge

M: ok , why MBA ?

me: gave fundas & gyans...
reasons & all..

M: who gave you a course on this ?

me: Explained..justified.

M:Why dont you go for commn programs...MICA etc?
me: ( I had mentioned ..sumthng like it earlier) gave gyan...supported it..
showed a bit flexibilty...blah-blah

M: You have come formally dressed...how does this communicate?
me: gave fundas, philosophy..

S:Ok.What are the maths you studied in engineering?
me: Sir , applicn of fourier transform , laplace transform ,..differential eqns.
( didnt want to come to diffrnal eqn..had forgot everything and nvr
bothered to revise..nyway)

S: d'fal equns..Ok..here is a question ?
(A definite integral ques was given and a graph was drawn and I
was asked to give a relation )

me: Explained it nicely.Took some time more and explained every things.
(very basic of engg maths...)

M: your role model ?
me: Jack welch .. former CEO of GE..

M: I know that ..( CEO part)
me:sorry, mam. I didnt mean to offend you.

M: It's alright.thanks for enlightening me
What is it that you see in him as a role model ?

me: Gave a gyan about " straight from the gut", his autobiography.
explained its influence on me...His stammering problem..related it to
mine.( blah-blah....)
S: "Gut" ? wat is this?

me: explained "gut -feeling" and later on mam took over and explained to
sir.

M: Ok..Rahul..we are done with u ,but a piece of advice.Polish your shoes
also because as you yourself told..about communication through dress
and all.

me:( where did dat come from??)
I'll take care of that.sorry mam.

M: Anyways , i wont hold it against you and It was fun talking to you.
me: Same here. Thank you ,mam ! Thank you ,sir!


Regrets:1>.should have not dirtied my shoes ?

2>.I could have asked the girl's name twice but never bothered
about it .was with her for a couple of hours and couldnt ask
for gmail ID or number also . ( wat a stupidity !)

Overall it was fun and crowd was good !!

Adios !!

Down but not out!!

when i asked god for courage,he gave me difficult situations to face,

when i asked god for brain & brown,he gave puzzles of life to solve,

when i asked god for wealth, he showed me way to work hard,

when i asked god for happiness, he showed me some unhappy people,

when i asked god for favors, he showed me opportunities to work hard,

when i asked god for peace, he showed me how to help others,

god gave me nothing I wanted,but he gave me everything I needed.

Liberated soul........!!

11th january will be perhaps the last day, after which I will let go all my dreams escape to the realms of possibilities .Life has been fair so far. Sometimes I tend to surprise even myself by asking such inane questions that I think any Tom,Dick & Harry could answer.Guess what !! I dont know why but I love struggling. Things which comes easily to me doesn't satiate my cravings , but the things for which I crave and provided I succeed in those, give me satisfaction to the hilt of my heart.

Sometimes I keep on interrogating myself for the purpose of my existence in this world. Some wants to be money-minting machine , some motivating leaders , some tech-geek ...and every someone I know ,has some purpose of their existence . Then why the hell life has to be so tough for me. Sometimes I want to run a NGO (weird feeling I have that I can be a harbinger of new India..Period.) , sometimes I want to be a dynamic HR manager , and then author , guitarist and god knows what....you name it and I got it. Four years of frustoo life has taken from my life the most precious moments , but in return has helped me to understand this world in a new perspective. It's really amazing that everyday , unconsciously I become a slightly better human ( at least ,I think so..). Despite there being lot of things that I don't like about me , there are multitude of things which I love about myself . I call spade a spade .I have my own set of convictions and opinions which help me to get a realistic opinion. God always chose me to struggle through my paths but believe me , this is the reason I will be fiercely successful some day. Thank you god , may you always choose tough life for me so that It would make me more determined as a person and justify my reasons of existence. Its a life which I am in enamored with lately , and despite being ignorant of my other such skills , I will keep on exploring until a day which nulls out my reason of existence . Its really amazing with me , the things which I fear most ,eventually happen to me and turn me into a new leaf .Hope this New year bring all cherished dreams and ambitions to the fore of everyone's life including me.


Adios !!